I write this blog after 3 consecutive days of non-stop (virtually) data-entry into Excel for my temp job.

Let's just say that I really need this cash. As well, I've learned a lot about car history just by punching all of this data in. Trends, etc. etc. I also listend to a ton of John Piper messages on my computer.

That guy is just so out of my league with his depth and breadth of spiritual insight into the word, into the glories of the Gospel, and man... I am just constantly blown away by what he has to say. His messages have really changed my outlook on things since I first started to listen to him in the summer of 2000, when I first heard him at the One Day conference.

Wow, I'll be in Chicago for the first time in my life, all weekend starting tomorrow. See you all later.

Many, I'm going insane. I've been punching data into Excel literally all weekend.. I can't even see straight anymore.

No one comments my site anymore. Ha, am I that boring? Good :-).

I basically spent the whole day working, eating, napping, and working again.

What a life this is. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to clear up the Rutgers situation.

One thing I've noticed recently is that I've not been doing my quiet times at all like the way that I used to, complete with journalling at all. I'm starting to think that this online journal is not really doing a good job as a replacement for my old journal.

Well, I guess I should sleep soon. Darn those Lakers, I wanted the Kings to win. I'm fearing the fate of the Nets this week... how'll they ever shut Shaq and Kobe down?

Today I finally got a temp job from a school... God surely has provided.

I've been getting having really annoying conversations with my mother lately... she really knows how to push the exact buttons to tick me off sometimes.

I must admit, there are problems in myself these days that I have realized only because of these unpleasant conversations with my mom. For the past year, I've slipped into this state of unmotivation, where I've listened to my body, my emotions, and my whims, allowing them to control my actions and my life. It hasn't been really happy, either, and I've been shirking a lot of responsibilities.

This is a little hard right now to describe, but it just feels like there's a vise tightening my chest every time I talk with my mother. However, I think there's even a worse sort of vise tightening around my life, as I haven't really been passionately pursuing God... it's a worse because it's subtle in its lack of any negative sensation. However, I find myself feeling hollow and listless all the time these days. Things that used to excite me about God don't excite me as much anymore, and I find myself starting to delve into things that really don't please Him... things that cater to old sinful passions that I've struggled with for so long.

Jesus, please, rescue me from this body of death.

Anyhow, even better news. Rutgers sent me information about the $20,000 in loans I will have if I go next year.

WHAT THE HECK? The BME Department said that they'd pay for my tuition... AND, they would pay me a stipend, but I've received -$40,000 from what they promised.

I don't get this. But, God is good, and I know that He's doing this to get me off my lazy butt and start taking care of business that I should have taken care of a while ago, but was too lazy and unmotivated to do.

Once again, Jesus, transform me... thank you for doing all this to show me how.