It's been a good while since I've substantially stated anything. I've been researching how to find the best career that fits me, my passion in life. I read a buttload about how to write effective resumes and cover letters, and what's important in interviews. I read and am reading books on how to glorify God through my passions and life. I paid for emode and took about ten different tests on personality, talents, IQ, EQ, etc. I tried to take the ones that were serious, not those cheesy "You are a ROCK STAR!" tests. I took so many tests in order to confirm in what areas I'm particularly strong, and what jobs would fit a person with my profile. For example, here's one statement that hit me on the button:

"Timothy, your Right Job will allow you to be Creative. From that, we can tell your inventive personality is in tune with your emotions. You have a rich imagination that needs room to flourish in the workplace so it can be appreciated by colleagues, coworkers and clients."

That's exactly why I've been suffering in biomedical research. It calls for creativity, but my sort of engineering creativity is more artistic than medical in nature.

Overall, I've noticed some similar themes throughout all the advice, and found that the advice to find a fitting career equates the advice to find the right spouse, right college, etc. In my mind, I've boiled all of the advice down to:

1) Comprehend yourself honestly, to the extent of what you've become and learned up to this point in life. Find where you want to go, and how you would be able to get there. I stress "honestly" because it's key that you have an honest view of what is, not what should be our could have been.

2) Understand how these traits may benefit the party at hand, be it the school, potential significant other, or workplace.

3) Learn how to clearly communicate that knowledge in written and spoken form.

4) Live with an active and teachable heart that is grounded in the essential Truth of the Gospel.

Ha! It spells CULL. Interesting, since I "CULL"ed those points out of all the information.

...and I'm lame. I know.

God, I can't sleep tonight. The realities of my sitaution are hitting hard. What am I doing?

"A crazy thing about communication in American society is the strange power of the listener. A song isn't good unless the listener says it is good; audiences determine music's success. However, it is equally true that we aren't serious listeners until we have educated our ears. If we don't critically train our listening tastes, we could be a mindless consumer of whatever the music industry pushes our way with big ad budgets and slick promotions."
— from The Listener Wins, by Michael Purdy, Monster.com Contributing Writer

"Christians are to lift burdens, not add burdens."

— John Piper

You haven't seen updates in a while because Blogger hasn't been too cooperative in uploading my posts.

Oh well.

Anyhow, last weekend I went to the NY Auto Show with church friends, ate dinner at this Mexican Joint called "Mi Nidito's," and went to see "Better Luck Tomorrow."

NY Auto Show - I am now convinced about how much of a waste it is to spend more than $35 K on a car. It's so ridiculously not worth it. For example, I sat in an Mercedes Kompressor and found it nice, but not worth $118 K to ride in.

Mi Niditito's - Pretty good Mexican place at 8th Ave. between 51st and 52nd Streets, considering it's owned by Indians (it has a sister Indian restaurant). I was really peeved because there were more people there than I had planned, and the seating was such that it was uncomfortable for some of the people that didn't know each other. I wanted to rearrange everyone, but didn't have the sense or boldness to get everyone to move around. But, things turned out to be pretty ok for most that were there, and the food was pretty good.

Better Luck Tomorrow - It was made very well. The film quality/cinematography, the pacing of the plot and humor, and the general direction were very professional. Furthermore, it's pretty successful in avoiding Asian stereotypes by presenting the life of its Asian Americans without making a deal about their ethnicities. It definitely is not a waste of money if you go to see it. However, there were problematic plot points (how could anyone suddenly give up cocaine if they wanted to?), and I didn't like the nihilistic themes.

Ok. Back to finding a life now.